My fear of other people on the road here is getting worse.. I am not afraid to be out and among others in town but here at home I am terrified..... It all stems from the problems in communicating with others, although my Spanish is improving - slowly - my fear seems to be getting really bad.
Helen Index : 5
Mood : changeable
I have even caught myself literally running and hiding when someone local comes past, its not good. In a way I feel more worried that this is happening here than why it is happening, I don't want to get lumbered with a phobia that results in me staying inside the house all the time.
A the moment all it is doing is stopping me from getting on with the work outside when Theresa is not here - OK I can work at the back of the house or inside but I have some jobs to do on the roof and even getting sand and gravel down from the car park is out.
On a completely different topic, why when I want to do something it is so hard to do it. Yes I want to draw better - I have so meny ideas that I need to put down - just don't have the ability to do it. I know that I should draw everyday but I just cannot do it - there is always something more important to do, or I just don't feel I can do it.
