Steps to Confusion

Helen Index : 6 to 8
Mood        : Low

Not a good few days - Trying to work on the steps of the house - Again one of the locals stopped to talk about what we were doing, As seems to happen Theresa was out, it seems that when ever some one stops to talk about the steps Theresa is not there. The result of this that I just get completely confused. I am not sure what was said, but I think there is a problem... The thing is that the entrance drops about 1.5M from the road in about 2M and was made up of rock and ruble and is down right dangerous. But I think that we should have talked to the local council before starting.
The result of all this misunderstandings is that I am getting to the point that I am terrified of being outside the house and slowly getting uptight being inside the place as well. In the last two or three weeks the Helen index has hit 8 if this carries on things are going to be bad..

Sick

Not a very good few days - I have been down with some bug.. - not sure what, Mostly aches and pains, and most of the pain was abdominal and lower back - sort of kidneys and liver.. Also my blood pressure rocketed up to 186/105 . its a bit better now (143/98). The Helen index has also rocked to a 10 though that has also dropped now to round 7 ( I need to do a graphic or something to show my index each time I write here).
As to how I feel - I am feeling very down about being here in La Palma, a lot of it is homesickness, possibly, but I am wondering if coming here was a big mistake. I feel sometimes like there is no ware here that is safe...