It´s another low blog.. I don´t seem to be able to get organised to do anything. I have so much that I would like to do, like drawing... I have the time, but when it comes to doing anything it only seems to get done if I HAVE to do it, just wanting to does not seem to work. Mind you if I did just what I felt that I could do, I would be spending most of my time sat on the bed reading or trying to sleep.
Helen Index : 6
Mood : Low
I have a friend that does so much, she fills her days with things, some times too much, but she does achieve a vast amount. I would never expect to see her just sitting around doing nothing.
But when I try to organize myself to start on achieving something, whether it is just getting some excise or completing a home class on some bit of software, I may do it for a day or two but the it just all goes to pot...
Am I just trying to hard, or trying to do too much, May be I need to just concentrate on one thing but which one...; The house, exercise, Spanish, drawing, one of the several software projects I would like to do, the garden(building, planting,planing etc), processing grapes, cooking, reading, woodwork(cupboards, shelves etc). The list could go on..... I wounder if I am just totally over whelmed by things.... I remember when before I left work I did have a plan, 6 months to get fit both in mind and body and then go and sign up for a coarse on drawing. But that was before we moved here and had an old house to fix up... Mind you the house is now at an acceptable level... But I also now have Spanish to learn and I am finding it hard.. Hard, I don´t do any studying.....
Now that reminds me of a repeated dream/nightmare. I was studying, taking classes, but I could never remember where or when that classes were so I never went and was getting so uptight about failing the exams....
I think I need to think about what is important and what needs to be done in what order.
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