Well the weekend was a bit of a washout in several ways - first it rained a lot and the only night that was clear was so damp that the lenses just fogged up all the time. And secondly I just went down.
I have not been feeling that up - in fact I spent most of yesterday in bed just watching videos and lazing around. I got up today, but then I had to go and see my care coordinator this afternoon, so I had to..
Yesterday all I seemed to feel was a driving need to smash things that usually ended up with me thumping the wall, and today has resulted in several cuts to my arm. Nothing deep, How I ever managed to cut my self so must last time I don't know, it hurts!!
I don't know if I can keep on going, and I wonder if it would just be simpler to take the cowards way out. To be honest I don't think that anyone would miss me (ok I know that my partner would, but the rest of the world would not even notice). That is an option, that for now, I will leave.
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