I had one of these dreams last night that you wake up from not knowing who you are or whether you are still dreaming or not. It has taken several hours and a good brisk walk (in the rain) to get some grip back on reality.
At the moment my anxiety levels are up through the roof and I don't know why, I seem to get all tide up about the silliest things or even nothing at all, just the thought of another day and what needs doing, is enough to make me want to go and curl up in bed, to hide from the world. I must not do that ALL the time as it will not help. But now and then it helps.
So on with the day!
This Blog is a journal of my journey from depression and suicide hopefully to a better life as an artist. Over the last 6 years I have been in psychiatric hospitals 3 times - once after a suicide attempted 6 years ago and then twice in the last 3 months. The last time was after a small overdose, followed by an attempted to slash my wrist in hospital and then an attempted at strangling my self using the bandage from my wrist. (I was on suicide watch at the time as well).
Who Am I
- Helen Of Pern
- La Palma Canary Islands, Spain
- A 40 somthing aspiring artist, who has spent most of her life as someone else.
Helen Index Explained
- 0 = Very Very Happy (this is an unnatral state)
- 1 = Very Happy
- 2 = Happy Normal state for most pepole
- 3 = Feel ok - nutral
- 4 = Down but ok
- 5 = Thoughts of Suiside once or twice a week
- 6 = Thoughts of Suiside once or Twice a Day
- 7 = Start Planing Suiside, Hide feelings from others
- 8 = Planing continues, start implimentation
- 9 = Self harm
- 10 = Atempt Suiside
Fun with photoshop
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