Yesterdays art therapy was interesting - Nigle seems to think I have a lot of hidden anger as well as being very alone...
I spent quite a bit of time getting worked up last night about the mover to La Palma, do we have enough money, Are we going to be stuck with the place we like on the web (nice place but quite remote and still needs some work), is it the right thing to do? This morning it was feeling just all too much and the old feelings of just wanting to be dead started coming back.
If I could just feel that I was getting somewhere it would help, I just don't seem to be able to do the things that I think I want to... Or is it I just don't know what I want to..
Oh well I suppose I should get on with the ironing..
This Blog is a journal of my journey from depression and suicide hopefully to a better life as an artist. Over the last 6 years I have been in psychiatric hospitals 3 times - once after a suicide attempted 6 years ago and then twice in the last 3 months. The last time was after a small overdose, followed by an attempted to slash my wrist in hospital and then an attempted at strangling my self using the bandage from my wrist. (I was on suicide watch at the time as well).
Who Am I
- Helen Of Pern
- La Palma Canary Islands, Spain
- A 40 somthing aspiring artist, who has spent most of her life as someone else.
Helen Index Explained
- 0 = Very Very Happy (this is an unnatral state)
- 1 = Very Happy
- 2 = Happy Normal state for most pepole
- 3 = Feel ok - nutral
- 4 = Down but ok
- 5 = Thoughts of Suiside once or twice a week
- 6 = Thoughts of Suiside once or Twice a Day
- 7 = Start Planing Suiside, Hide feelings from others
- 8 = Planing continues, start implimentation
- 9 = Self harm
- 10 = Atempt Suiside
Fun with photoshop
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