Art therapy again. Drawing of a child in a glass box above a green asteroid far away form anyone else. Am I that lonely child? I do push others away a lot of the time, and I seem to be afraid of letting anyone too close, including pulling away from my own children. Part of it is that I don't fit in many places and I feel that I am an embarrassment to those around me.
Being transexual has not helped - I have been more of a loner since my operation although I have been that way most of my life. The funny thing is that I like being the center of attention in a group or even just sitting on the edge of a group. But a lot of the time I just feel very isolated. Then again I don't do very well here at home on my own, just me an the cat, though she does like being around me, and follows me around the house...
This Blog is a journal of my journey from depression and suicide hopefully to a better life as an artist. Over the last 6 years I have been in psychiatric hospitals 3 times - once after a suicide attempted 6 years ago and then twice in the last 3 months. The last time was after a small overdose, followed by an attempted to slash my wrist in hospital and then an attempted at strangling my self using the bandage from my wrist. (I was on suicide watch at the time as well).
Who Am I
- Helen Of Pern
- La Palma Canary Islands, Spain
- A 40 somthing aspiring artist, who has spent most of her life as someone else.
Helen Index Explained
- 0 = Very Very Happy (this is an unnatral state)
- 1 = Very Happy
- 2 = Happy Normal state for most pepole
- 3 = Feel ok - nutral
- 4 = Down but ok
- 5 = Thoughts of Suiside once or twice a week
- 6 = Thoughts of Suiside once or Twice a Day
- 7 = Start Planing Suiside, Hide feelings from others
- 8 = Planing continues, start implimentation
- 9 = Self harm
- 10 = Atempt Suiside
Fun with photoshop
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