Revelation

Art therapy today has opened some thoughts. I have been feeling like I don't know who I am and what I want in life. But could it be that I am just hiding behind a mask because who I am just does not fit in with who others think I should be. I am who I am an result of all my experiences since I was born on this world. I did not come in to existence 6 and a half years ago but have been here all a long.
What makes me happy, walking in the woods , seeing animals in the wild, walking along the beach in a storm, creating things.
so why do I feel that my life is a failure? Is it to do with the fact that I feel I should leave some sort of permanent record that I have been here, you know do something earth shattering, or make my name a household one. But are these things really what makes a life worth while. Children are what we as parents leave behind but although I can honestly say that I am very proud of my children, I am not close to them as I feel that I am an embarrassment to them and that they would be better off if I was not here, or at least I should keep a distance from them due to what I am.
So With all that how am I going to make my self believe that life is worth while and that I am achieving something good and doing something worthwhile with my life.
religion does not help as I lost that when I transitioned - no I did not lose my religion because I lost faith - I was thrown out, and when you have something you believe in very deeply taken away from you and you are told that what you have done make you an out cast from God, then religion is not of much use.