It seams that after the few good days at the end of last week things have been going bad! For the last few days I have just felt that I can not do anything, if I try to get something done I seem to go off in random directions, none of which are any thing to do with what I want to do.
For the last few days I have had an image in my mind that I want to get down on paper but I keep hitting a brick wall when I try or even think about trying to put it down. The old fears come back - "You can not do it", "It will be no good" and then all I can do is sit and steam or try to sleep.
I have even had thoughts again about self harm - even a sort of longing to do it, to see blood, my blood. For now I have resisted the urges.
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